(I love Shania Twain. Always. She was the voice of my childhood. It made me SO happy that she was on Idol tonight. Hallelujah. This song was my inspiration growing up- it sort of embodied my mother and the person I wanted to be someday. Someone who worked hard and was independent. She was more than what she looked like)
I know I'm Miss Happy-All-The-Time-the-World-Can't-Hurt-Me....
but the truth is.... I feel things hard. Which is part of why I'm so happy all the time- because little things make me the happiest person ever. I look at the big picture of things and take advantage of all those little great things. But, when big stressful things take turmoil...eh...I get really stressed.
I have three days before I decide where I end up next year. And ultimately, it's going to be my choice. I can choose to stay at home for just one year at my hometown's university with the awesome schedule I already know allowing me to work a lot and save money to transfer to my dream school the following year...or go straight to the dream school and leave everything behind and start anew. Broke. Definitely. Paying a ridiculous amount of money to live in a dorm.
I can't base my decision on one person. Not on a boy. Not at 17. Am I right?
Worse comes to worse....it's three hours away. three. Not a lot. Doable. Right?
I'm having a hard time dealing with the pressure I'm putting on myself and the pressure my (parents) are putting on me. I know I need to make myself happy and choose something that will make me happy in the future-choosing a path to study and all of that. But then there's the other side of the equation where my parents want me to be happy by choosing something they think will make me happy. And to be honest, I don't know what I want, and while everyone else's opinions interest me and could make me happy- I really don't know what I want for myself. I wish I could just buy clothes and dress people. HA! What an idea.
I also lost my ipod. I'm freaking out. I know everyone says, "oh music is my life, I can't live without it. I bring my ipod everywhere," yada yada. But it really isn't until something is missing that you miss it. And I'm dyinggg. Not being able to listen to music before I sleep? Horrible. Not listening to my favorite song while I drive to school? Not listening to my ipod in class while reading so I can actually focus? Not listening to my favorite songs...period? Gah. It's driving me insane. It's been gone for only 36 hours, too. Searching the house up and down has done nothing.
SO. Stressful things aside...
I'm a bit behind. But today, as I was stressfully hammering away at my computer...I realized...the last seven of my chictopia posts all have 100+ votes on them. HOLY COW. And four of them have 130+. I'm in aweeee. I haven't slowed down enough to realize how spectacular this is...so. Tonight. I'm going to watch american idol, eat some ice cream, and appreciate the small things that make me happy. Like the wonderful community in the fashion blogging world. Wow. I'm blown away.
outfit one! I love this dress. Garden Collection. H&M. GO GO GO! It's amazing. I wanted to buy each and every thing I saw. They had this dress in like, four different colors/patterns. And they had shorts and shorts and shorts. And so many tops. LOVE. It was such a perfect day last Sunday. It was a good solid 80 degrees. SPRING! I added a belt. Just because otherwise, I looked like a colorful potato sack.
Self portraits are so much more challenging than having someone photograph you. dress- H&M $22 Shoes- Walmart $5 Belt- f21 $4 Outfit two! I just realized I have two dresses in a row here. Oooopsies... Well. I LOVE THIS DRESS. I should stop buying them, right? (I'm hoping you said no) It's going to be perfect for summer. Also, the zipper in the front is so convenient. It's so easy to slip into. I'm obsessed with florals right now. Obsessed!! And this dress is no exception. I. Love. The. Zipper. see previous statement. I also love headbands. With flowers on them. eeeeeee. dress- f21 $24 tights- f21 $5 shoes-jessica simpson $30 I also just realized that my mouth is open in all of these. Whoopsies. Haha :) I love how these red shoes bring out the red flowers in the dress. amazing shoes, they are. blah. goodnight. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Thank you all for following and commenting on my blog. It gets me through stressful days. Love, Maggie.